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I need help regarding my fic Poisoned Minds. I'm struggling with mental spoons, as you guys know, and may need DMCA take down notices done for me, or an explanation on what the hell this search has shown, so many businesses have my fic and quotes from it in the search...


From the sixth item, goes on for pages, with one site actually selling my work.

Help help help

moth2fic you might know what is going on with these businesses

owlbsurfinbird you were so kind to help me a few years ago

Is this why Poisoned Minds has 3 times the hits as everything else - it is often being stolen by bots and/or being used to mask dodgy stuff? Frankly, I'm scared

And I'm only on here, doing crazy searches in the early hours as I am frozen, pertrified, in a shut down, depressed, terrified, as I have been too brain foggy to do anything for my ESA reassessment, I am too brain foggy and prone to aggressive symptoms of seizures and panic to explain how ill I am to some CAB volunteer in just two hours to do the form and I am so so scared I will be taken out of the support group, and of course, I can't even attend interviews and courses and look for work, even for a week, let alone the months an appeal will take, so I will be sanctioned every week til I have zero income, lose housing benefit, lose the house, and end up on the streets with my daughter, like so many other chronically ill and disabled people are doing, especially in Oxford, or if I wasn't so scared of hell, I might kill myself asd 10,00s have since 2010 - or starve literally to death, unable to move on the streets of Oxford...

So much for distraction! Even in fan fiction there is no security and justice!


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Sep. 7th, 2018 05:51 pm (UTC)
Oh sweetheart, I'm so sorry. Can't your mother or brother help you prepare for the reassessment? I'm sure they don't want you and BK out in the streets. - And if they are too busy, maybe you can try to take notes in the way we all did to prepare for oral exams and presentations? Try to imagine it's not as important as it is? (I know it sounds stupid, but it works for me at times.)

(I'm sorry to hear about your fic, btw, but I've got no clue how to handle things like that. If it happened to me I'd ignore it because I wouldn't know how to address it.)
Sep. 11th, 2018 05:05 pm (UTC)
My brother's 'help' just keeps drowning me and leaving me more brain foggy, as I have to explain to him everything ten times over and he still doesn't get it. My mum is stressed out and on the verge of collapse caring for my grandparents (don't get me started on my selfish, undead, paedophile grandfather!)

The CAB (Citizens' Advice Bureau) appointment was for the help with the reassessment forms. You get a 2 hour slot in their small office. I wanted to be a bit prepared. Until the government cut funding to such charities, the Oxfordshire South and Vale Carers gave me and BK an outreach worker who knew us and our conditions, and would come to our house to help us fill in any govt forms, and sometimes, with me, it would take 3 3 hour slots, me still in bed. I get 2 hours with someone who does not know me or often my illness to answer a question in a way a DWP decision maker won't throw out at the mandatory reconsideration, as for over 90% the time, people who get assessed by one of the agency will lose everything immediately regardless of how ill or disabled they are, which is of course, why, funding to such supportive charities for disabled people was cut. They came to your appeal, the CAB can give you a solicitor to draw up your appeal papers but the rest is up to you. 83% of appeals are upheld, and the DWP pays costs and pays the benefit backdated to when it was stopped, so the idea this is saving money is laughable.

Anyway, my ESA reassessment was posted this morning recorded delivery, and I will not think about it until I am contacted again (or try to). Meanwhile it has been 12 weeks since we sent in my daughter's PIP mandatory reconsideration (a step before you can appeal) and no one at the CAB has heard of one taking so long, but I checked, and she is on the system, according to the call centre guy, so the mail did get delivered (I have proof it did, I mean, got lost in the govt building) but I will chase that when everything else is dealt with.

Next, cancelling the care package in a way that is obvious I still need care in the home but cannot afford to lose the DLA which pays for other help which is more flexible (actually it is paying for food and my daughter's needs and paying off our debts, but s'sh, the principle is I need home help, but I need to pay for all kinds of easy help that takes into account my allergies and exhaustion, and I'm not going to get that out of 6 hours a week housework and a month's laundry service which is what my care plan is and the council give me money for - taking the DLA from my account to put into the care plan one, meaning I can't touch it or won't get it back it I can't find a carer is theft as far as I am concerned and I'd rather have no 'care' if that is what will happen. but the DWP when they reassess me could say, oh, you turned down your care package, you must be better! it's a minefield out there designed to trip you up and leave you with nothing so hopefully you die or kill yourself or rot slowly on the streets. Sorry, stressed rant! Maybe I'm spoilt, living in a country that was supposed to have a welfare state, but from what I can see, even in the US, once you have proved you are too ill and disabled to work, they pay you disability checks!!!)

I think the fic thing is, I will have to ignore it too :)

Sep. 11th, 2018 07:25 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear it. But I'm glad he's at least *trying* to help. It's not exactly easy stuff to grasp. So while I'm really sorry it exhausts you, I can relate to finding it difficult to deal with it. --- And yeah, your grandfather is on the list of people I wouldn't mourn if he died tomorrow. He's got interesting company on that one.

That is highly frustrating, but with all the news I read and hear about the UK in recent years sadly also entirely unsurprising. :(

I agree that it's best to take these steps one at a time. I really hope things will work out despite those cuts. -_-

Do be very careful not to give them any reasons to cancel anything. It's disgusting that they make it that complicated, but do your best to grit your teeth and smile your way through it as best you can. :( And no, I don't think anyone could call you spoilt. Even if you live in a "welfare" state. (That's clearly doing its best not to be one...)

I fear you probably will. Or at least until someone with more of an idea on what to do gets back to you.

Oct. 11th, 2018 12:34 pm (UTC)
Sorry, I missed a few things last month due to fatigue, a cold and the ensuing chest infection.
I think the only thing you can do is focus on the priorities. I did the last PIP form a page at a time, but I had someone to scribe as my hand function is limited and being able to feed myself definitely takes precedence over form filling. Luckily typing with a touch screen is easier.
Unfortunately, I have no idea about the story. Can you get in touch with a moderator or similar for help?
Thinking of you, even when I don’t post, as my use of LJ has petered out.
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